Just a quick post to get my head round what I did yesterday. Basically I have been in habit of sometimes going for a couple of beers at the Brew Co bar by myself before my wife comes home. I usually just take ten pounds cash and leave my wallet back home. However yesterday I didn’t because I thought I could trust myself.
Ended up getting very drunk and bashing my head on a wall. Poor state indeed.
Back to square one. I have not been honest with my wife either about this and it’s really awful.
I feel terrible at the moment and very depressed. I have only myself to blame of course.
This is hard. I suppose I have to face that I am an alcoholic. But I looked up to Alastair Campbell.
Bur he was honest with himself and his wife.